So seriously this past month has probably been the best month of my life. I know- its a pretty bold statement, but I really can't think of a time in my life when I was happier. Its not all about quitting drinking (see previous posts) but I do think that that decision propelled me into clarity. First of all I believe with all my heart that God has blessed every part of my life since that one act of obedience June 8th of this year. I am living guilt-free. There is nothing in my life that I am shameful for, or embarassed of. There is not part of my story that I woudn't share with the world. I feel plugged into life. More like clocked-in really. I wake up each day ready for any job God wants me to do. Whether its calling a friend, investing in a family member or just performing the perfunctory duties of being a mom and housewife-I'm ready. And I do it gladly, joyfully, thankfully.
Every day I feel like my world (Bonnie's world) gets smaller and smaller, yet somehow more and more significant. I saw the greatest t-shirt while running the Peachtree Road Race this year-On the back it said "Make Yourself Necessary". I like that. Make yourself necessary-to your family, to your friends, to your world. What are you doing to make yourself necessary? What are you doing thats important? What is important to you? I know that the things that were important to me 10 years ago are pretty unimportant to me now. I like who I am becoming. The first part of my life has been a process of elimination-figuring out things I don't like-stopping things. The rest will be about choosing things. Choosing to have love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodnesss, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. When those things shape your life-you are alive and very necessary.
praise God!! i love proverbs 31!
ReplyDeleteA wife of noble character who can find?
She is worth far more than rubies.
11 Her husband has full confidence in her
and lacks nothing of value.
12 She brings him good, not harm,
all the days of her life.
13 She selects wool and flax
and works with eager hands.
14 She is like the merchant ships,
bringing her food from afar.
15 She gets up while it is still dark;
she provides food for her family
and portions for her servant girls.
16 She considers a field and buys it;
out of her earnings she plants a vineyard.
17 She sets about her work vigorously;
her arms are strong for her tasks.
18 She sees that her trading is profitable,
and her lamp does not go out at night.
19 In her hand she holds the distaff
and grasps the spindle with her fingers.
20 She opens her arms to the poor
and extends her hands to the needy.
21 When it snows, she has no fear for her household;
for all of them are clothed in scarlet.
22 She makes coverings for her bed;
she is clothed in fine linen and purple.
23 Her husband is respected at the city gate,
where he takes his seat among the elders of the land.
24 She makes linen garments and sells them,
and supplies the merchants with sashes.
25 She is clothed with strength and dignity;
she can laugh at the days to come.
26 She speaks with wisdom,
and faithful instruction is on her tongue.
27 She watches over the affairs of her household
and does not eat the bread of idleness.
28 Her children arise and call her blessed;
her husband also, and he praises her:
29 "Many women do noble things,
but you surpass them all."