So seriously this past month has probably been the best month of my life. I know- its a pretty bold statement, but I really can't think of a time in my life when I was happier. Its not all about quitting drinking (see previous posts) but I do think that that decision propelled me into clarity. First of all I believe with all my heart that God has blessed every part of my life since that one act of obedience June 8th of this year. I am living guilt-free. There is nothing in my life that I am shameful for, or embarassed of. There is not part of my story that I woudn't share with the world. I feel plugged into life. More like clocked-in really. I wake up each day ready for any job God wants me to do. Whether its calling a friend, investing in a family member or just performing the perfunctory duties of being a mom and housewife-I'm ready. And I do it gladly, joyfully, thankfully.
Every day I feel like my world (Bonnie's world) gets smaller and smaller, yet somehow more and more significant. I saw the greatest t-shirt while running the Peachtree Road Race this year-On the back it said "Make Yourself Necessary". I like that. Make yourself necessary-to your family, to your friends, to your world. What are you doing to make yourself necessary? What are you doing thats important? What is important to you? I know that the things that were important to me 10 years ago are pretty unimportant to me now. I like who I am becoming. The first part of my life has been a process of elimination-figuring out things I don't like-stopping things. The rest will be about choosing things. Choosing to have love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodnesss, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. When those things shape your life-you are alive and very necessary.
